Dark times lately.
I feel like my heart is covered in storm clouds and I’m struggling to see the sun on the horizon.
I know many of you can relate. And so, to you, I offer some words that have moved me, quotes from others with storm clouds eclipsing their hearts.
“You are tired, friend.
Your body aches to rest.
You have wanted to fall apart for so long.
To let go of your defenses.
To be transparent and authentic.
Your cynicism has protected you.
Your fear has served you well.
Your dreams of enlightenment were beautiful dreams.
But there is no need to hold your ‘self’ together any longer.
Or simply stop pretending that you don’t know ‘how’.
The vastness will hold you.
Only illusions can disappear.
The deeper the heart breaks
The more love it can hold.
Don’t tell me you are not worthy.
Don’t tell me you are not made of stars.” ~Jeff Foster
“Let it die. Let there be a new beginning. It’s awful. Goodnight.” ~ Charles Bukowski
“Very depressed today. Unable to write a thing. Menacing gods. I feel outcast on a cold star, unable to feel anything but an awful helpless numbness. I look down into the warm, earthy world. Into a nest of lovers’ beds, baby cribs, meal tables, all the solid commerce of life in this earth, and feel apart, enclosed in a wall of glass. Caught between the hope and promise of my work – the one or two stories that seem to catch something, the one or two poems that build a little colored island of words – and the hopeless gap between that promise, and the real world of other people’s poems and stories and novels.” ~ Sylvia Plath
“Grief does not change you… It reveals you.” ~ John Green
“Loneliness is the human condition. Cultivate it. The way it tunnels into you allows your soul room to grow. Never expect to outgrow loneliness. Never hope to find people who will understand you, someone to fill that space. An intelligent, sensitive person is the exception, the very great exception. If you expect to find people who will understand you, you will grow murderous with disappointment. The best you’ll ever do is to understand yourself, know what it is that you want, and not let the cattle stand in your way.” ~ Janet Fitch
“Friend, when you feel broken, lost, far away from home, when enlightenment seems like another country and the words of the sages seem like fairy stories, when answers won’t come, and doubts rage like fire…Stop. Breathe. Remember, nothing has gone ‘wrong’. A dream is dying, that is all, a second-hand dream of how this moment ‘should’ have been…As the brokenness calls to you, as the doubts sing their crazy song, as stories cascade like oceans, remember that the very homesickness that you try to push away is actually inviting you to your true Home, Here and Now, prior to all earthly ‘homes’. A problem is a situation that longs for kind attention. A crisis is a turning point. Dis-ease is a call for profound rest and release. Trauma is the invitation to the kind of acceptance you never even imagined. Raging doubts are explosions of supreme intelligence, calling you to deep trust in your own first-hand experience, a fearless plunge into the constant embrace of the Unknown. Even when it all seems to be going wrong, stop and breathe and remember that nothing can go ‘wrong’ in the vast field of your undying presence.” ~ Jeff Foster